How can I deal with this?

Im sorry girly:( I know how it feels.....hes on your mind constantly---but the best thing is to get distracted--you need to build your friends up again, listen to music-exercise and dont talk to him as you have said you would do. after any long relationship--before the couple can establish a friends deal they need time alone to regroup and refocus and get control of their lives. then after 3 months you can start to be friends.....like my boyfriend now had a gf of 11 mo, they had before they broke up and went to different colleges---he told her about me and they are friends and keep in touch, but its about moving on and opening yourself to opportunities.....jus like my nf i broke up with my 10 mo bf and we went back and forth on n off until i cut him off for a solid 3 months...now we r at seperate colleges and he will call and we will chat but my boyfriend and i are happy and both of our ex's are doing fine and are friends. its all about time and getting control of your life. get back to your hobbies and store away-if not trash all memories of him---if youre not with him no use having reminders until you are ready to pull them out again. good luck hun:) i have faith in you:)